I have to say that it is hard to make friends. I am not a very trusting person....you get stabbed in the back and lied to enough times and you dont trust anyone. I dont tattle when I am told something in confidence. I do not stab people in the back. I treat my friends the way I want to be treated. Why is that so hard? Why cant other people do the same?
So, at soccer I met a person I would have never thought to become my best friend. It has been a very very long time since I had a friend like this (in school up till about 10th grade). So in all those years I have had 'friends' but nothing more. Now I have a real, true friend. Somoeone who makes me laugh, step way outside my comfort zone, pushing me to my limits, doesnt judge me, and this list could go on and on. You know the friend that would be sitting in jail next to you saying that was fun...that is her. Anyway, I have the bestest friend in the whole world.
The thing that gets me is that this friend is more than a friend, she is family. Ok, she is better than family. Family seems to be on another planet or something. My family (cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, etc) are all way away. I havent seen most of them since I was little...1970s. Many have died, many have grown up, etc. My immediate family (parents, siblings, spouse, inlaws, children) is even more complicated. One parent living, one dead. Spouse working all of the time, then working more. In laws that have NOTHING to do with us (including their children...all living nearby). One child moved out with family of own...no contact. One child that keeps me going, my main concern and focus. Sibling that dropped off the face of the earth when moma died (so did daughter). Father that needs....well...that is long complicated story.
Back to my friend....she is the bestest friend in the world. Now, she is moving. We have spent so much time together having fun and now she is moving away. Some people would laugh and say we are 'inseparable'. We were always together...at soccer, store, movies, park, dinner, her house, water park, amusement park, etc...we were always together and had the girls with us too. That will be coming to an end very very soon...too soon.
So now I am starting a 'visit my friend' fund. I have dug up all change that I can find. Even the girls added change to it. I am saving all I can to go visit everyone when they get moved. As much as I would like everyone to stay here, I am really happy for them. Dream job in field she wants, kids are very happy to see new things....it is great for them. I couldnt be happier...and sadder.
Well, at least I can always visit. Looks like their house will be my 'home away from home'. At least I do have that option....or I could move too. It is not like I have anything here. Not like family cares where I am.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Need to keep up
I keep totally neglecting this page. I need to get my tushie here and do more with this. I should be using this to do what I had intended to do...tell my story. It seems that I am only here once in a great while and that needs to change.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Abandon
a·ban·don tr.v.
1. To withdraw one's support or help from, especially in spite of duty, allegiance, or responsibility; desert:
2. To give up by leaving or ceasing to operate or inhabit, especially as a result of danger or other impending threat:
3. To surrender one's claim to, right to, or interest in; give up entirely.
4. To cease trying to continue; desist from:
5. To yield (oneself) completely, as to emotion.
Doesnt this mean that if you just walk out of someones life without a care or concern that you have abandoned them? How can a person be caring and yet just walk out of someones life, just leave, just abandon them without any care or concern?
How can a person abandon someone they care about and then later walk back into that persons life like nothing ever happened, like nothing is wrong, like it didnt happen?
1. To withdraw one's support or help from, especially in spite of duty, allegiance, or responsibility; desert:
2. To give up by leaving or ceasing to operate or inhabit, especially as a result of danger or other impending threat:
3. To surrender one's claim to, right to, or interest in; give up entirely.
4. To cease trying to continue; desist from:
5. To yield (oneself) completely, as to emotion.
Doesnt this mean that if you just walk out of someones life without a care or concern that you have abandoned them? How can a person be caring and yet just walk out of someones life, just leave, just abandon them without any care or concern?
How can a person abandon someone they care about and then later walk back into that persons life like nothing ever happened, like nothing is wrong, like it didnt happen?
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Military Instructions
"Slipping gear could let your M203 grenade launcher fire when you least expect it. That would make you quite unpopular in what's left of your unit."- Army's magazine of preventive maintenance.
"Aim towards the Enemy."- Instruction printed on US Rocket Launcher
"When the pin is pulled, Mr. Grenade is not our friend.U.S. Marine Corps
"Cluster bombing from B-52s are very, very accurate. The bombs are guaranteed to always hit the ground."- USAF Ammo Troop
"If the enemy is in range, so are you."- Infantry Journal
"It is generally inadvisable to eject directly over the area you just bombed."- U.S. Air Force Manual
"Whoever said the pen is mightier than the sword obviously never encountered automatic weapons."- General McArthur
"Try to look unimportant; they may be low on ammo."- Infantry Journal
"You, you, and you ... Panic. The rest of you, come with me."- U.S. Marine Corp Gunnery Sgt.
"Tracers work both ways."- U.S. Army Ordnance
"Five second fuses only last three seconds."- Infantry Journal"Don't ever be the first, don't ever be the last, and don't ever volunteer to do anything!"- U.S. Navy sailor
"Bravery is being the only one who knows you're afraid."- David Hackworth
"If your attack is going too well, you're walking into an ambush."- Infantry Journal
"No combat-ready unit has ever passed inspection."- Joe Gay
"Any ship can be a mine sweeper ... Once."- Anonymous
"Never tell the Platoon Sergeant you have nothing to do."- Unknown Marine Recruit
"Don't draw fire; it irritates the people around you."- Your Buddies"If you see a bomb technician running, follow him."- USAF Ammo Troop
"Though I Fly Through the Valley of Death. I Shall Fear No Evil. For I am at 80,000 Feet and Climbing."- At the entrance to the old SR- 71 operating base Kadena, Japan
"You've never been lost until you've been lost at Mach 3."- Paul F. Crickmore (test pilot)
"The only time you have too much fuel is when you're on fire."
"Blue water Navy truism: There are more planes in the ocean than submarines in the sky."- From an old carrier sailor
"If the wings are traveling faster than the fuselage, it's probably a helicopter -- and therefore, unsafe."
"When one engine fails on a twin-engine airplane you always have enough power left to get you to the scene of the crash."
"Without ammunition, the USAF would be just another expensive flying club."
"What is the similarity between air traffic controllers and pilots? If a pilot screws up, the pilot dies; if an ATC screws up, ... The pilot dies."
"Never trade luck for skill."
"Weather forecasts are horoscopes with numbers."
"Airspeed, altitude and brains. Two are always needed to successfully complete the flight."
"A smooth landing is mostly luck; two in a row is all luck; three in a row is prevarication."
"Mankind has a perfect record in aviation; we never left one up there!"
"Flashlights are tubular metal containers kept in a flight bag for the purpose of storing dead batteries."
"Flying the airplane is more important than radioing your plight to a person on the ground incapable of understanding or doing anything about it."
"When a flight is proceeding incredibly well, something was forgotten."
"Just remember, if you crash because of weather, your funeral will be held on a rainy day."
Advice given to RAF pilots during WWII: "When a plane crash seems inevitable, endeavor to strike the softest, cheapest object in the vicinity as slow and gently as possible."
"The Piper Cub is the safest airplane in the world; it can just barely kill you."- Attributed to Max Stanley (Northrop test pilot)
"A pilot who doesn't have any fear probably isn't flying his plane to its maximum."- Jon McBride, astronaut
"If you're faced with a forced landing, fly the thing as far into the crash scene as possible."- Bob Hoover (renowned aerobatic and test pilot)
"Never fly in the same cockpit with someone braver than you."
"There is no reason to fly through a thunderstorm in peacetime."- Sign over squadron ops desk at Davis-Monthan AFB, AZ, 1970
"If something hasn't broken on your helicopter, it's about to.
"Basic Flying Rules: "Try to stay in the middle of the air. Do not go near the edges of it. The edges of the air can be recognized by the appearance of ground, buildings, sea, trees and interstellar space. It is much more difficult to fly there."
"You know that your landing gear is up and locked when it takes full power to taxi to the terminal.
"As the test pilot climbs out of the experimental aircraft, having torn off the wings and tail in the crash landing, the crash truck arrives, the rescuer sees a bloodied pilot and asks "What happened?"; The pilot's reply: "I don't know, I just got here myself!"- Attributed to Ray Crandell (Lockheed test pilot)
"Aim towards the Enemy."- Instruction printed on US Rocket Launcher
"When the pin is pulled, Mr. Grenade is not our friend.U.S. Marine Corps
"Cluster bombing from B-52s are very, very accurate. The bombs are guaranteed to always hit the ground."- USAF Ammo Troop
"If the enemy is in range, so are you."- Infantry Journal
"It is generally inadvisable to eject directly over the area you just bombed."- U.S. Air Force Manual
"Whoever said the pen is mightier than the sword obviously never encountered automatic weapons."- General McArthur
"Try to look unimportant; they may be low on ammo."- Infantry Journal
"You, you, and you ... Panic. The rest of you, come with me."- U.S. Marine Corp Gunnery Sgt.
"Tracers work both ways."- U.S. Army Ordnance
"Five second fuses only last three seconds."- Infantry Journal"Don't ever be the first, don't ever be the last, and don't ever volunteer to do anything!"- U.S. Navy sailor
"Bravery is being the only one who knows you're afraid."- David Hackworth
"If your attack is going too well, you're walking into an ambush."- Infantry Journal
"No combat-ready unit has ever passed inspection."- Joe Gay
"Any ship can be a mine sweeper ... Once."- Anonymous
"Never tell the Platoon Sergeant you have nothing to do."- Unknown Marine Recruit
"Don't draw fire; it irritates the people around you."- Your Buddies"If you see a bomb technician running, follow him."- USAF Ammo Troop
"Though I Fly Through the Valley of Death. I Shall Fear No Evil. For I am at 80,000 Feet and Climbing."- At the entrance to the old SR- 71 operating base Kadena, Japan
"You've never been lost until you've been lost at Mach 3."- Paul F. Crickmore (test pilot)
"The only time you have too much fuel is when you're on fire."
"Blue water Navy truism: There are more planes in the ocean than submarines in the sky."- From an old carrier sailor
"If the wings are traveling faster than the fuselage, it's probably a helicopter -- and therefore, unsafe."
"When one engine fails on a twin-engine airplane you always have enough power left to get you to the scene of the crash."
"Without ammunition, the USAF would be just another expensive flying club."
"What is the similarity between air traffic controllers and pilots? If a pilot screws up, the pilot dies; if an ATC screws up, ... The pilot dies."
"Never trade luck for skill."
"Weather forecasts are horoscopes with numbers."
"Airspeed, altitude and brains. Two are always needed to successfully complete the flight."
"A smooth landing is mostly luck; two in a row is all luck; three in a row is prevarication."
"Mankind has a perfect record in aviation; we never left one up there!"
"Flashlights are tubular metal containers kept in a flight bag for the purpose of storing dead batteries."
"Flying the airplane is more important than radioing your plight to a person on the ground incapable of understanding or doing anything about it."
"When a flight is proceeding incredibly well, something was forgotten."
"Just remember, if you crash because of weather, your funeral will be held on a rainy day."
Advice given to RAF pilots during WWII: "When a plane crash seems inevitable, endeavor to strike the softest, cheapest object in the vicinity as slow and gently as possible."
"The Piper Cub is the safest airplane in the world; it can just barely kill you."- Attributed to Max Stanley (Northrop test pilot)
"A pilot who doesn't have any fear probably isn't flying his plane to its maximum."- Jon McBride, astronaut
"If you're faced with a forced landing, fly the thing as far into the crash scene as possible."- Bob Hoover (renowned aerobatic and test pilot)
"Never fly in the same cockpit with someone braver than you."
"There is no reason to fly through a thunderstorm in peacetime."- Sign over squadron ops desk at Davis-Monthan AFB, AZ, 1970
"If something hasn't broken on your helicopter, it's about to.
"Basic Flying Rules: "Try to stay in the middle of the air. Do not go near the edges of it. The edges of the air can be recognized by the appearance of ground, buildings, sea, trees and interstellar space. It is much more difficult to fly there."
"You know that your landing gear is up and locked when it takes full power to taxi to the terminal.
"As the test pilot climbs out of the experimental aircraft, having torn off the wings and tail in the crash landing, the crash truck arrives, the rescuer sees a bloodied pilot and asks "What happened?"; The pilot's reply: "I don't know, I just got here myself!"- Attributed to Ray Crandell (Lockheed test pilot)
Monday, August 13, 2007
Tech Support Letter
Dear Tech Support,
Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0 and noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of new space, valuable resources and monetary funds. No mention of this phenomenon was included in the product brochure.
In addition, Wife 1.0 installs itself into all other programs and launches during system initialization, where it monitors all other system activity. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3, Drunken Boys Night 2.5 and Saturday Football 5.0 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected.
I cannot seem to keep wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run some of my other favorite applications. I am thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall does not work on this program.
Can you please help me!!!???
Thanks,
A Troubled User
+ + +
Dear Troubled User,
This is a very common problem men complain about, but is mostly due to a primary misconception. Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0 with the idea that Wife 1.0 is merely a UTILITIES & ENTERTAINMENT program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and designed by its creator to run everything.
It is unlikely you would be able to purge Wife 1.0 and still convert back to Girlfriend 7.0. Hidden operating files within your system would cause Girlfriend 7.0 to emulate Wife 1.0 so nothing is gained. It is impossible to uninstall, delete, or purge the program files from the system once installed. You cannot go back to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is not designed to do this.
Some have tried to install Girlfriend 8.0 or Wife 2.0 but end up with more problems than the original system. Look in your manual under "Warnings- Alimony! /Child support!". I recommend you keep Wife 1.0 and deal with the situation.
I suggest installing background application program C:\YESDEAR to alleviate software augmentation. Having installed Wife1.0 myself, I might also suggest you read the entire section regarding General Partnership Faults (GPFs). You must assume all responsibility for faults and problems that might occur, regardless of their cause. The best course of action will be to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE. In any case avoid excessive use of C:\YES DEAR because ultimately you may have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the operating system will return to normal. The system will run smoothly as long as you take the blame for all the GPFs.
Wife 1.0 is a great program, but very high-maintenance. Consider buying additional software to improve the performance of Wife 1.0. I recommend Flowers 3.1 and nothing less than Diamonds 2K. Do not, under any circumstances install Secretary with Short Skirt 3.3. This is not a supported application for Wife 1.0 and is likely to cause irreversible damage to the operating system.
Best of Luck,
Tech Support
Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0 and noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of new space, valuable resources and monetary funds. No mention of this phenomenon was included in the product brochure.
In addition, Wife 1.0 installs itself into all other programs and launches during system initialization, where it monitors all other system activity. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3, Drunken Boys Night 2.5 and Saturday Football 5.0 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected.
I cannot seem to keep wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run some of my other favorite applications. I am thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall does not work on this program.
Can you please help me!!!???
Thanks,
A Troubled User
+ + +
Dear Troubled User,
This is a very common problem men complain about, but is mostly due to a primary misconception. Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0 with the idea that Wife 1.0 is merely a UTILITIES & ENTERTAINMENT program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and designed by its creator to run everything.
It is unlikely you would be able to purge Wife 1.0 and still convert back to Girlfriend 7.0. Hidden operating files within your system would cause Girlfriend 7.0 to emulate Wife 1.0 so nothing is gained. It is impossible to uninstall, delete, or purge the program files from the system once installed. You cannot go back to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is not designed to do this.
Some have tried to install Girlfriend 8.0 or Wife 2.0 but end up with more problems than the original system. Look in your manual under "Warnings- Alimony! /Child support!". I recommend you keep Wife 1.0 and deal with the situation.
I suggest installing background application program C:\YESDEAR to alleviate software augmentation. Having installed Wife1.0 myself, I might also suggest you read the entire section regarding General Partnership Faults (GPFs). You must assume all responsibility for faults and problems that might occur, regardless of their cause. The best course of action will be to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE. In any case avoid excessive use of C:\YES DEAR because ultimately you may have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the operating system will return to normal. The system will run smoothly as long as you take the blame for all the GPFs.
Wife 1.0 is a great program, but very high-maintenance. Consider buying additional software to improve the performance of Wife 1.0. I recommend Flowers 3.1 and nothing less than Diamonds 2K. Do not, under any circumstances install Secretary with Short Skirt 3.3. This is not a supported application for Wife 1.0 and is likely to cause irreversible damage to the operating system.
Best of Luck,
Tech Support
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Harry Potter
I have read each book. I have seen each movie. I love them all! I think that each one gets better than the last.
I know alot of people said that the newest movie was horrible. Get real, there is no way to put a 700+ page book into a 2 hr movie without having to cut a bunch of the details out. Unless each book was turned into a mini-series, there is no way that the details from each book could stay exactly as they are. I do agree that there are many details that were cut and are important to the story. What should have been cut? They had to cut something. Even though there are many details lacking, the newest movie Order of the Phoenix was Awesome! I loved it!
I cant wait for the last 2 books to become movies. I will be awaiting that. I also cant wait for the Harry Potter Encyclopedia. I am sure that will fill in alot of missing details. I am also sure that J.K. Rowling will be happy to get use of the notes and details that she didnt include in the books. I dont know how she does it, how she did it. But, I have to say Thank you JK Rowling. You have kept in under your spell since I discovered your books. My children as well as I have been completely swept away by Harry Potter and friends.
I know alot of people said that the newest movie was horrible. Get real, there is no way to put a 700+ page book into a 2 hr movie without having to cut a bunch of the details out. Unless each book was turned into a mini-series, there is no way that the details from each book could stay exactly as they are. I do agree that there are many details that were cut and are important to the story. What should have been cut? They had to cut something. Even though there are many details lacking, the newest movie Order of the Phoenix was Awesome! I loved it!
I cant wait for the last 2 books to become movies. I will be awaiting that. I also cant wait for the Harry Potter Encyclopedia. I am sure that will fill in alot of missing details. I am also sure that J.K. Rowling will be happy to get use of the notes and details that she didnt include in the books. I dont know how she does it, how she did it. But, I have to say Thank you JK Rowling. You have kept in under your spell since I discovered your books. My children as well as I have been completely swept away by Harry Potter and friends.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Family?
I grew up half the country away from family...only had parents and sibling. When most people went to visit Grandparents or cousins, I couldnt. I always felt cheated. I always wanted what others had and I didnt. Since family was halfway across the country it was years between visits. Many of my cousins are grown and many dont even know me. My children dont know these family members either. Many have died and so my children will never even get to know them. Then there are many that I have no clue where they are. I miss my family that is so far away. I want to see my family that is so far away.
I have stayed close to my immediate family because I have always wanted for my children what I never had. I always wanted my children to know and be close to family since I couldnt.
Sad part of this is that I hold family as a high priority. I hold family as most vaulable, most important. Why? I have to wonder why?
The family that is nearby never has anything to do with us. We never see them. They never see us. They do their thing, we do ours. My children have family right here that they never get to see. They spend time with their families but not us. They go do things with their family but not us. So, why do I keep thinking that family is so important? Why do I care so much?
My moma died in 2000. At that time I lost not only her but also a sibling and a child. No, they didnt die....they just stepped out of my life like no big deal. They 'faded into the sunset' never to be seen or heard from again. Ok, I have a sibling that calls when he needs something from my husband. The need for communication is ONLY when they NEED something. They know where I am, where to find me, email, etc, all information needed to reach me but dont.
Men dont get it. They have that cold wall up and just act like 'no big deal'. But it tears me up. I have stayed put so that I could be close to family for many years. Now I am to a point that I just dont care. What I mean is that after all of these years trying to be in one place close to family, I just dont see the point in it anymore. I feel like just up and going someplace far away. What would it matter? They wouldnt see me or talk to me any more or less than now.
I have a friend that is more like family than my 'family'. I have a friend that I do things for and with, visit, share feelings, etc. I have a friend that is here for me. This friend is more like family than my very own family. I can depend on my friend. I know my friend would be there, she has been. This friend has become more like family than I could ever imagine. She is the best! So why? Why cant my family be just that, Family?
Am I just wrong to thing that family can do things together, spend time together, be a family? Do I have a distorted view on what a family is? Am I living in the wrong time...when Beaver Cleaver and all was the norm, when family was just that Family?
I have stayed close to my immediate family because I have always wanted for my children what I never had. I always wanted my children to know and be close to family since I couldnt.
Sad part of this is that I hold family as a high priority. I hold family as most vaulable, most important. Why? I have to wonder why?
The family that is nearby never has anything to do with us. We never see them. They never see us. They do their thing, we do ours. My children have family right here that they never get to see. They spend time with their families but not us. They go do things with their family but not us. So, why do I keep thinking that family is so important? Why do I care so much?
My moma died in 2000. At that time I lost not only her but also a sibling and a child. No, they didnt die....they just stepped out of my life like no big deal. They 'faded into the sunset' never to be seen or heard from again. Ok, I have a sibling that calls when he needs something from my husband. The need for communication is ONLY when they NEED something. They know where I am, where to find me, email, etc, all information needed to reach me but dont.
Men dont get it. They have that cold wall up and just act like 'no big deal'. But it tears me up. I have stayed put so that I could be close to family for many years. Now I am to a point that I just dont care. What I mean is that after all of these years trying to be in one place close to family, I just dont see the point in it anymore. I feel like just up and going someplace far away. What would it matter? They wouldnt see me or talk to me any more or less than now.
I have a friend that is more like family than my 'family'. I have a friend that I do things for and with, visit, share feelings, etc. I have a friend that is here for me. This friend is more like family than my very own family. I can depend on my friend. I know my friend would be there, she has been. This friend has become more like family than I could ever imagine. She is the best! So why? Why cant my family be just that, Family?
Am I just wrong to thing that family can do things together, spend time together, be a family? Do I have a distorted view on what a family is? Am I living in the wrong time...when Beaver Cleaver and all was the norm, when family was just that Family?
Saturday, July 28, 2007
It's been a while
Things have been crazy. I had planned to be on here regularly...ooops. Michelle and I went to Arizona and so this has been neglected.
We had a blast in the short time we were gone. I think I found Heaven or something close to it. We have tons and tons of pics...will have to share in bits. Check out the Flickr show to see.
We had a blast in the short time we were gone. I think I found Heaven or something close to it. We have tons and tons of pics...will have to share in bits. Check out the Flickr show to see.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Rain, rain go...
...someplace else. Ok, I know that we need rain...plants need it, animals need it. We must have rain. But why oh why do we have to have all or nothing? 14 straight days of rain is just CRAZY! Before long I will be seeing an Ark, or growing gills, or quacking, or something. Enough of the rain already. Three plus inches in one downpour is more than enough. You cant even mow the lawn (grass is too wet or the rain starts up again). I snuck in mowing before it got too bad. Phew! It would have been bad if I hadnt got to it when I did.
Monday, June 25, 2007
This is the first
Of many postings I hope. I am new to this and just have to get it all figured out. I am hoping this will be the start of something...I dont know...fun, crazy, exciting.
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